I haven't been on a whole lot lately because I had been having a lot of back and leg pain and not sleeping well. Slept a little here and there when I could. I was almost going insane,


I did have some good news and some bad news from the doctors that I met with yesterday. Apparently the first time that they give a spinal epidural, they only put a certain amount of that drug in to see if it is going to help and to see how long it will last. They will and can increase the amount once they know if it will work on the person. So I am really excited to get my next injection done. It was great for two weeks with no pain at all in my back or legs. Any amount of time I can get that kind of total relief is worth the pain while they are doing the injection. It hurt like heck but it was still worth it. And now knowing what more information I know is making me all the more happy. After the injection I could walk without any pain. Now with the pain meds I can walk again but not without some pain so it is still a big plus. I need to loose weight and being able to walk and do things around the house and yard will help. I am about 310 pounds at 6" 1 1/2" tall. I have never been this big in my life. I used to be in great shape but after my back was injured it has been a battle to control my weight. But the last couple of years it was really a huge problem. Now I am looking forward to getting rid of the weight and it will help my back and total health overall. I am working to get my balance back and trying to get as much of my memory back and my strength also because of that dang mini stroke. Something is being pinched off in my neck and they cannot find it yet. They told me that it can happen again and if they cannot figure it out that one of these times it will leave me a total vegetable or I could die from it. I told them that if and when it happens I do not want to be left as a vegetable and to let me go. The vessel in my brain is getting larger, the one in my left lung is staying the same. They will not do anything unless they have to try a life saving measure if they need to. My wife and kids are a little upset from the news we had yesterday but they also know my wishes and that I expect them to be followed just in case. But, I am not going to let anything hold me back. I am just going to live as much and as good as I can and have fun doing it. I believe in God and the power of prayer and the good thoughts. I do know that miracles can happen because our daughter was on deaths door as a baby and they saved her life just in time. So I leave it all in God's hands and continue on with my life the best I can. I believe in prayer and good thoughts from all so please pray for me and think about me, I will appreciate that a great deal. I feel better and well enough today to start my BBQ/Smoker build, and I will take my time. When my son is home we will work at it together. I will take some pictures as I go.
Talk to you later my friends,
Raymond